He’s just mad because he can’t acquire all the apple juice that I’m acquiring. (x)
Never underestimate the stupid amount of late I am up
oh trust me, i never underestimate that
i do estimate that you’ll be the only one to see it, though.
i think it’s safe to say that i’m still feeling as if the farmly hates me. i mean they do say that they’re alright with me and all but if i don’t believe it, myself, then what good is it to say it to me?
i can’t blame ‘em for disliking me, though. can’t blame ‘em for hating me, either. i’ve been a jerk to them, continue to be a jerk to them, and probably will be a jerk to them in the future, like i have been to everyone i know and every friend group i’ve been in. it’s a constant stream of people being good to me when i don’t deserve it and me repaying them by being five times the amount of jerk they’ve ever had.
at least it’s nice to let this feeling out, where and when they won’t see it. glad we had this talk.
there’s just no reason to bother people when they’re having a good time with the people they care about
guess i’m doing other things tonight
not having a good day and it’s made worse by the fact i can’t really tell people who are bothering me that they’re bothering me because i know how they get when i try to bring that up because i’m always told i can bring this stuff up to them but whenever i do it’s just
maybe i’m really just making this worse. it really doesn’t matter. they’re not gonna read this.
tonight isn’t that good of a night so far despite my best efforts
oh well, i cleaned my room a bit and ordered a new microphone. maybe something good will happen.